Atoms: How do they even work?
It has occurred to me lately that even though I have been writing like a madman for grad school that I have not really been able to write what I want to write in nearly a year! Amazing how time goes by so freaking fast without realizing it. Well, I guess I realized it, but I've been on autopilot most of this past year. Sorry for that all those one persons that may happen upon this blog thingy.
As I am constantly in flux mentally and spiritually, moving and growing, stunting, starting over, moving and growing, and on and on I feel that perhaps autopilot mode is not a safe way for me to live. I am a scientist at heart and by work (I don't say trade because the only thing I trade is my time for laughably small salary) so I am constantly thinking, analyzing and looking at the world in different ways. Not just for my inner being, but for those whom I teach and are responsible for.
A couple things that have bothered me as of yet is this mainstream idea of being "woke." I feel like perhaps we are moving away from the bondage of western religion or puritanical ideologies towards a more open eastern philosophy where mind and body work as one with nature. I could be totally wrong and that's okay. I don't know everything and the things I know are always up for investigation from my endlessly critical and analytical mind. Anyway, "woke" is a bothersome word to me for some reason. Say it's an inner intuition. My suspicious nature toward anything that barfs out of Hollyweird has made me painfully aware of the power those "stars" have on the populace. Once social media has given these "artists" a platform to speak outside of their area of artistry, the word "woke" gets thrown around and people begin to think they are thinking differently than what they have been thinking before (does that make sense?).
Another thing that has caused me to paranoidly look at the world is the fact no matter how hard I try I can no longer see humans separate from animals, microbes, or any other life. I am just a collection of atoms, molecules, chemical reactions, tissues, and trillions of cells that identify as "self" yet the mind behind my eyes is not in control of most things that identify as "self." The fact that we are made up of a quaternary code on a molecular level (DNA: C, T, A, G) and this happens because electrons connect to each other's outer shell and are in constant vibration or flux with so much space between these electrons and the nucleus of each atom means that we should not be solid. However, we are. Or perhaps we are solid enough to process only what we are able and cannot sense the universe as it truly is. I don't what all this means, but I need coffee.
As I am constantly in flux mentally and spiritually, moving and growing, stunting, starting over, moving and growing, and on and on I feel that perhaps autopilot mode is not a safe way for me to live. I am a scientist at heart and by work (I don't say trade because the only thing I trade is my time for laughably small salary) so I am constantly thinking, analyzing and looking at the world in different ways. Not just for my inner being, but for those whom I teach and are responsible for.
A couple things that have bothered me as of yet is this mainstream idea of being "woke." I feel like perhaps we are moving away from the bondage of western religion or puritanical ideologies towards a more open eastern philosophy where mind and body work as one with nature. I could be totally wrong and that's okay. I don't know everything and the things I know are always up for investigation from my endlessly critical and analytical mind. Anyway, "woke" is a bothersome word to me for some reason. Say it's an inner intuition. My suspicious nature toward anything that barfs out of Hollyweird has made me painfully aware of the power those "stars" have on the populace. Once social media has given these "artists" a platform to speak outside of their area of artistry, the word "woke" gets thrown around and people begin to think they are thinking differently than what they have been thinking before (does that make sense?).
Another thing that has caused me to paranoidly look at the world is the fact no matter how hard I try I can no longer see humans separate from animals, microbes, or any other life. I am just a collection of atoms, molecules, chemical reactions, tissues, and trillions of cells that identify as "self" yet the mind behind my eyes is not in control of most things that identify as "self." The fact that we are made up of a quaternary code on a molecular level (DNA: C, T, A, G) and this happens because electrons connect to each other's outer shell and are in constant vibration or flux with so much space between these electrons and the nucleus of each atom means that we should not be solid. However, we are. Or perhaps we are solid enough to process only what we are able and cannot sense the universe as it truly is. I don't what all this means, but I need coffee.
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